For the first time in a long time, I stayed home on New Year’s Eve.
I worked my regular shift at work, picked up my kiddo from his grandmother’s house, and drove straight home. The weather has been bad for the past week or longer. We’ve gotten a lot of snow, high winds and very cold temperatures. The idea of going out simply wasn’t appealing. The roads were bad and there would likely be drunk drivers everywhere. Not a good mix.
It wasn’t just the weather that kept me home. It was the burning desire to have some peace in my world as the clock ticked away and then moved us into the new year. I just wanted to be alone in my quiet house with my child safe in his bed and my dog at my feet.
I put on some comfortable clothes, grabbed a bottle of sparkling grape juice, a wine glass ( because I am fancy) and some snacks. I settled in on my couch to watch Atomic Blonde on DVD. I also enjoyed my Christmas tree and decorations. I felt like I barely got a chance to even notice them this year.
The moment that the clock struck midnight, my phone blew up with HAPPY NEW YEAR texts and the world outside my window exploded in gunshots and fireworks. I wasn’t lonely since my friends remembered me and the stupidity outside my window was still keeping me employed.
2017 wasn’t a bad year for me. A lot of people claimed that it was one of the hardest years of their lives. While mine certainly wasn’t perfect, there were a lot of changes and transitions that needed to happen. My acceptance of these facts made the sadness and the pain a bit easier to manage. I simply had to move on. So I am.
I am looking forward to 2018 and I am embracing life now, more than I have in a really long time. I like the direction that my life seems to be going. The unknown is always scary but it can also be exciting. It just depends on the way you choose to look at it.
I hope everyone had a safe and happy New Year’s Eve! Here’s to 2018!